patience…

I am not blessed with much patience, I’d even go as far as saying that lack of patience is one of my biggest weaknesses – am sure you all agree! 😉

It will, therefore, also not come as a surprise to you that a) I’m getting pretty bored of not doing anything and b) that I am quite frustrated by the seemingly complex and costly process of being allowed to work here in Tanzania.

But then, when scrolling through social media yesterday, I saw this quote:

And that’s when I realised that I have had totally the wrong attitude! Instead of enjoying a life of no deadlines, no demanding schedules and no stress, I have been missing exactly that… not to London levels but still… The structure, working towards something, seeing a tangible output – I have had none of that for the past four weeks and that has left me feeling rather useless and a little lost!

Even though I make my daily to do lists still, the tasks seem unimportant and often like a waste of time.

But I need to embrace that this is my life for a little while… it will be a few months, I fear, before I will be able to work here legally (more on that later), so I have to find a way to enjoy waiting!!

And that starts with leaving Arusha, at least for a while. I don’t feel great in this city – it feels too busy,  too dirty and not very safe. I keep being ‘harrassed’ when walking down the street – which annoys the hell out of me – but most importantly my friends are not here!

So have started the plans and arrangements for a trip down south – back to Iringa to enjoy a more positive attitude surrounded by old friends in a safer and quieter environment for a few weeks. 😊